I have taken a lot of decisions over this weekend.
The first and the hardest is taking half my course load at the fall. The reason why I am doing this is because I’ve realised that I can’t sustain the life I am living. I am splitting at the cracks and that’s not good. I’ve been functioning on survival mode and that’s not helpful at all.
I haven’t failed, I haven’t given up, I’ve just gone and tackled an issue. The way I see it I have decided to take smaller steps… and that is brave too. More often than not I have found myself in situations where I couldn’t really cope with the state of things yet I decided to carry on for the sake of… Well for the sake of something.
Not this time. I am determined to make a better life for myself and that starts with self-care. I won’t self-destroy. I won’t overload. I won’t entertain toxic friendships. I will practice self-love everyday. See the beautiful things in life. Sleep enough, eat enough, sit down when I need to and have fun every now and then.
I won’t become a shell. I won’t forget myself. Not now, not tomorrow, not next week, not ever. Again.